Every smile has a reason, every tear has an excuse.

Taddaaa!

I am back and Yes, I am alive. :D

Sitting in my room alone at this "be happy for the reason time" of diwali makes me look back in life.

There's contentment, there are smiles. Not because OMG I am God's fav child, neither cos I have a walk in closet (which I don't) or have the chanel's or the LV's (Oh wait, I have one) its cos life has been a lesson, a very profound and ugly lesson in its own way .

You know the best thing a father, who's almost 60 tells his daughter? Umm, no! Not that he got her a mustang. wait! Umm, ya not that. But that whenever he's in a dilemma, he puts his daughter in that position and does what he thinks his daughter would have done . (that would be ME ) :D

Its nothing great and probably utter nonsense to few of you but it means everything to that girl who has a come a long way from the "I will do whatever I want brat".

I am not trying to make a point of any sort, its a light read (well for those who atleast do) but all I am saying that don't take things for granted .

We might have thousand reasons to cry and that is probably why everytime you shed a tear everyone baffles but that never happens when you smile. Well, not smile like a maniac. Then, people might find something fishy. Ask me!

Everytime I feel there is something un tamable about me or with me, I just tell myself that right at that moment there might be crores of people who are happy and smiling and chirpy and blahh but then there are people who don't even know how its feels to be content .

So cry over what?

My dad sometimes says "Gal saari aake pahe te mukk jaandi aa " which in punjabi means "No matter what, it all ends on money" .

Well, probably. Or why not? for sure ?

But if thats the truth, so is the fact that life may stop at money but it surely starts with something else.

For college?

TRUST ME . I am in DCE and I have see such depression psyched people around who wouldn't have been content even if they were sitting in the white house cos they will be busy working out with some angles at which the building can be hit so that it hits the ground with the least force/momentum/torque/KUCH BHI.

For love?

Nobody can cry "because" of love. Crying for love is still considerable . For any further heartbreak news, refer to the earlier post!

I have these pictures from different phases of my life in my room . Looking at them I realize how people, places, relationships have changed in my life. People who meant everything to me and left me for nothing and vice versa but there is one thing that is constant . I haven't stopped finding new people, I haven't stopped smiling, I haven't I JUST HAVE NOT stopped living . So where is the regret? ERROR :)

Next time you feel like crying, cry yourself out till your eyes are red but after that, put on your best clothes, do your hair, put on your best make-up (kohl and lip balm in my case though) and go out, smile, laugh. Fool life like it has ALWAYS been fooling you.

Oh and, don't worry about the red eyes. Some guys actually find it hot ;)

And quotes from Marilyn Monroe that I truly believe in :
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

Next time you cry, tune into this. It helps :)